Wednesday, January 25, 2012

The Fated Canvas Prints

Months before Christmas, I happened to chance upon a group of paintings. You know that moment when you see something you just know you have to have? Something that is meant to be yours? Well this was that moment. Unfortunately, the price was not budget friendly so I walked away. Ever since then, I have had my eye on them. All four of em ;) Every 2 weeks or so, I would come back to the store and watch this group of amazing canvas prints start dwindling in numbers until they went on clearance.

After everyone on my gift list had been taken care of, I went back to the store after boxing week with crossed fingers. And much to my surprise there were 2 left!!!

Did I get it though? Nope. Something I never thought about before dawned on me that day. How am I going to take them home? I have to walk to the train station, take the train and then the bus. With the bags I already have, there was absolutely no way for me to carry them safely home unless I took a cab. Yeaaa.....nope.

So I left empty handed again! I reconciled with the idea that I was not meant to have these paintings at all but it sure didn't stop me from visiting again and again and again. Surprisingly, though the price kept going down (sale prices were dropped 5 times!), these two paintings didn't sell.

There's nothing wrong with them as well. No damage at all!! So one day I changed my mind. I walked right into the store, and come hell or high water, I was going home with one.

The canvas print below is the first one I picked up. It was the cheapest of the two at $11.00 and I already had an idea of where it was going to go. It's much more vibrant in person. Camera does not do it justice.

I really love this painting because it speaks to my creative style. Express. Inspire. Style. Create

Taking this home was an experience in itself. I ended up carrying it from one end to another of 7 Ave (1st to 8th St.) at night. Right before leaving the free fare zone, I realized that I hadn't purchased a train ticket and since I had no cash, I had to find an open convenience store. Very tall order at that place during that time which was very weird. Not only was it creepy, but the painting was also heavy after lugging it for a while.

But now it's hanging on my wall and I love it!




This one below is the painting I purchased tonight! "Go with all your heart" When I bought the first one, I had to leave this one with a heavy heart. Not only was it bigger and heavier then the first one, but it was also more expensive.

While I was at meditation tonight, a thought came that I should go and pick this up. Tonight.
I was very skeptical because it's been on the clearance rack for almost a month now. Yet another surprise when I saw it tucked behind near the back. The next best surprise was how much it was on clearance for now - $10!! Unbelievable! The BF happened to join me at meditation as well and he was in a good mood to take me to this store and carry it for me! Another miracle!


I am a big believer that art should be felt, not just seen. The art on my walls each have a story behind them. They might not be in sync like the ones on magazines but I like 'em that way.

I want to believe that the fact that no one snatched these up at these amazing prices and condition means that they waited for me. I was meant to have them, not only for beautifying my walls and the message but the story and adventures just getting them and the memories I will have in the future.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

All is well in my world

Image source: Angel Mantra via Happy Inspirational Scrappin

I went back to school tonight after missing two classes plus a tutorial. I was super anxious thinking of what I've missed. Turns out I'm not that far behind and best of all, I actually did well tonight.

I let my anxiety win this time. But I went back and everything was good.

And thanks to the BF, I actually made phone calls that I've been putting off. And of course this was also adding to my anxiety.

What a crazy cycle I weave :) Tonight, I stopped playing victim and owned up to my responsibility.

Hurray for the little victories ^_^

Monday, January 23, 2012

Are we doing this again?

It seems like a never ending tango. Just when I think I've beaten it, it snakes it's way back into my happy, fulfilled and busy life.

Who or what could be this disrupting? This rude? The annoying piece of shit!?

Who else but my "forever friends" depression and anxiety (and they've brought a long a friend, panic attack) How nice.

I just want to scream at the world! Scream at the know it all people who say "this too shall pass".  BULLSHIT! Haven't I paid my dues? Haven't I cried enough tears? Haven't I lost enough of my timeline when a panic attack wreaks havoc to my psyche and freezes everything in my life? Haven't I had enough pity parties?

Please leave me alone. Can't you go torture someone else?

But you won't.

I work everyday to keep you at bay but you seem to be around, just lurking and waiting for me to become weak. Like a virus. Like an unwanted guest. Like a toxic "friend".

Yes you bring lessons. Hard knock life lessons. And yes because of you I have gained wisdom and added to my "old soul" quality.

But you are getting on my nerves. Actually, you have been getting on my years for almost 10 years now. You are downright PISSING me off! I don't want your friendship. YOU SUCK!


You want to know something?


I'm going to keep hoping. Yup, your old nemesis HOPE is on my side. That you can't take away from me. I will NOT let you. It's my security blanket. My stuffed animal. My guardian angel. My defense. My hope. My light. My salvation.


It's everything I've got.


So now that you're back and we're getting reacquainted again, I've made steps to make sure we don't repeat the beginning of 2011. We are soooo NOT doing that again. It's going to be different. We are going to learn to cohabitate until I find a way to finally kick you the eff out! And I'm going to win by staying ahead of the game.

See...I've learned from you. You are a formidable foe, but a predictable one. I have options this time.

And this time...I'm MAD! I'm ANGRY! No more pity parties. No more "Why me!" I've had enough playing the victim role.


No chump - not this girl!


Not anymore.










UPDATE:

After I posted about this subject, I logged on to FB and found this little gem waiting for me. #crazybuttrue



Hmm...this has me thinking...am I using depression as an excuse? A scape goat, something to blame when things don't go my way? Do I have this all wrong then? Does this mean I musn't  blame depression ..."for actions which have led to the circumstances..." I now find myself in?


Should I take the non-victim ideology to the next level and just scrape off depression out of the equation? Is this what it even means or am I being defensive again? Why and what for? Am I? Whaaat??



Hmm....




Wednesday, January 18, 2012

HPR - My Must See List

As part of my price winnings from Downtown Calgary's contest, I now hold in my hot little hands a flex pass for the 2012 High Performance Rodeo!!!


At first glance I thought this was a "Calgary Stampede" related event hence the "Rodeo". So when I was schooled via First Thursday on what this festival was all about, I was like "WHOAAAA *big googly eyes* O_O WHOAAAA"

Lately I have been exploring Calgary's arts and culture scene and have been lusting for more ever since! I am hooked to the core!

For those who don't know what the HP Rodeo is, here's a blurb from their website:
The High Performance Rodeo is Calgary’s International Festival of the Arts. Encompassing theatre, music, dance, comedy and interdisciplinary art, the High Performance Rodeo is the largest event of its kind in western Canada.
For four weeks in January, local, national and international performers converge on Calgary to share many of their award winning performances.
Here's my must see for this year's lineup:
  • Taking Shakespeare
  • The Ugly One - after taking a backstage tour of this play, I am super duper excited to experience this! #1 on my list.

  • Lucha Va Voom - OMG! The craziness of Luchadores and the sexiness of Burlesque = marriage made in heaven! Can't wait!!!

  • +15 Dragon Dance Parade for Chinese New Year = It's FREE! and I love Chinese New Year
  • Sans Facon - Public Art installation. Cool concept. I admit at first I was a little disappointed when I found out this was a "public" installation. Now, I am in love with the idea. If I knew how to skate, I'd be all over this!

  • Snowblower 2012 - I had such a great time seeing this for the first time! A free, mid-winter outdoor dance part with a Winter wonderland theme and KidKoala spinning among other acts. Pure awesomeness

  • Death of a Freakshow - If I have enough money, I am planning on checking out this site specific play! "Dancers in a freight elevator? Acrobats in the boiler room? Actors on a rooftop?!" Very intriguing, yea?
  • Not really sure if this part of HP Rodeo:
    • Soundasaurus Festival - The Delian Mode doc - This was nothing short of AMAZING! As part of First Thursday's, I got to see this documentary for FREE! at The Engineer Theatre at The Epcor Centre. The first two installations were deafening, especially the second one. Next year, I won't be so over zealous as to sit in the first row right in front of the speaker. Ouchie! As for the feature movie, it's a short documentary about the life of Delia Derbyshire who pioneered electronic music. Her most prolific work could very well be the sounds of Doctor Who. Girl power! Check out the website here.
There is so much to see of this great festival! To see the line up and calendar, and learn more about this, go to their website.

Image credits: hprodeo.ca

Rafflecopter Launch Party

I've entered to win an Apple iPad2! Shockingly, this will be my only Apple product. Seems like I'm one of the very few that hasn't joined the Apple craze! Steve Jobs would be shocked :o It's not that I don't want one, it's just that I can't afford one. The one product I did buy years ago, my beloved 2nd generation iPod nano was stolen at the gym!! Boooo!!

So yea, crossing my fingers and hoping I will win! Try entering it as well, if you must. It lowers my chances so I shouldn't encourage it...

Check out Rafflecopter as well. I have already won a grand prize raffle from a blog through them! Great experience.


Monday, January 16, 2012

Shake those goodies!

Tonight I went to my very first burlesque class! And I did this by myself ;) I've seen 3 burlesque performances before and have always entertained the idea of being one of those vixen femmes. So when the opportunity came up via a Facebook invitation to join a Burlesque Burn Teaser Workshop, I jumped at the idea with very little hesitation. Today we had -31 C weather and thankfully, my aunt rescued me by dropping me off and picking me up. Taking the bus or cab would have been a huge hassle and I'm so grateful for the ride. Arrived a few minutes late into the warm-up, but then again, what's new? I made it though and didn't cancel no matter what!! Woot woot!

 Back to the class:
Image source: burlesquedancers.org

The class was a 2 hour workshop consisting of a very rigorous warm-up and workout using muscles I haven't used in a while (ouchie!) and then a 2 minute choreography. The classes, taught by the amazing Daisy Deville, are small in size. Workout or dance wear is worn with high heels no higher than  2.5 inches. Fun colorful boas are provided along with the chairs and music. The choreography to me was intimidating at first because I haven't really learned dance in a while. Daisy Deville really breaks it down though and she teaches her students different ways to make it our own.

Basically to summarize it without giving the experience away, the experience was
  • Rigorous
  • Extensive
  • Boatastic
  • SEXY FUN!
The choreography is super sexy! I can't wait to practice on a scarf and buy my own boa. At first it feels awkward to be doing all these moves in front of a mirror with complete strangers. But after a while, with a lot of laughter with the other girls, it becomes soooo much fun! Screw looking awkward! Every move becomes sexy, especially when I think of the unveiling this little surprise for that special someone ;) And when you mess up, just shimmy and shake that boa!!

This has definitely crossed off one item off my bucket list. I'm hoping to actually take regular classes as soon as my schedule open up and I can save some $$$. And maybe, just maybe, I'll be confident enough to join in one of their performances!!

Man - I feel like a woman! A sexy, vampy kitten.

Every girl deserves to be able to play and get in touch with their feminine, inner diva side. And burlesque is one of the best way to do this. Best part - the more junk and flab you have, the better for shimmying!! No more sucking it in HURRAY!

For more info on these classes, go to Burlesque Burn.

Friday, January 13, 2012

Me a Skier?

OMGosh! The time has finally come. After 13 years of living in Canada and being an hour away from the Rockies, I am finally going skiing!

A friend and I are heading off to the slopes tomorrow and she's going to teach me how to ski on blades! Whatever that is lol!!

I am super scared. I am super excited!!! I am curious.

There are lots of things going through my mind.

  • What if I don't get the lesson?
  • Why are lift tickets so damn expensive?
  • Can I afford this?
  • Do I have the right clothing?
  • Am I going to be warm enough?
  • Am I going to overheat?
  • How do I get on a lift? How do I get off the lift?
  • and most importantly, what if I break my leg/tailbone/crash on a tree!? I'm too young to die!!
OMG how on earth am I going to do this!? With my anxiety levels spiked, I'm so close to backing out!  But I know it's the right decision to go.

Yes it's expensive.

Yes it's scary.

But those things can be overcome.  I can work and save money instead of shopping. I can meditate in the morning and think positive to overcome the anxiety. I have faced worse situations then this and have come out alright!! YES I CAN DO THIS!

The pros to do this?

  • FINALLY!!! I can feel very Canadian like and say to myself and the world that YES I SKI! Even if it's only this one time, I still skied ;)
  • I'm going to live out one of my dreams and it's one more thing to cross off my bucket list!!
  • It's an adventure! I am all about adventure this year!! The fact that I said yes without knowing the full details is amazing!!
  • The gratitude I feel towards a friend for driving, sharing her day with me, subsidizing the lift fee, and teaching me!!
  • Being humbled to be with nature!
  • The fact that I can prove to myself that I am brave to face this challenge!

So I'm off to get ready for tomorrow. It's going to be a very early morning.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

New: ClustrMaps

Lately I've been noticing that my little blog has been getting visitors from around the world. This got me curious. How awesome would it be if I could visually document where people are from?

Upon researching Google and looking at other blogs, I've decided to try out ClustrMaps. You can find it in the bottom of the right menu bar.

To see a bigger version of my blog's Clustrmap, click here.

I can't wait to see dots clutter all over my site map!! It's amazing how the world is in our fingertips! Technology is amazing ^^

Now...come on world!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

First night of school

Tonight was my first class. Despite my uber great effort to be on time for class, I still managed to be 5 mins late. Not bad for me actually! And as consolation, there were 2 other people behind me.

But seriously, I do need to be punctual.

Finding the classroom wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Big thanks to the orientation tour which showed me where my wing was. Awesome!

The class was fairly easy tonight. We learned about numbers. Whole numbers, irrational numbers, etc. And how not to talk in class. Good easy class to start off what will surely be a challenging semester.

In class, we were asked what our goals for the class were. Mine was to finish and hand in my homework on time.

I'm so tired right now. My brain hurts. My body hurts. And I can't breath because I have a cold.

It really sucks but I just have to power through. Now I'm going to sign off because I'm rambling. The lack of oxygen is getting to me.

Blaaaah

Monday, January 9, 2012

MyHaul - Winter & Spring Jackets & Snow Pants


For the first time in a long time, I finally had my first Sunday off last week! To celebrate, I convinced the BF to go shopping with me. Since he was on a hunt for his favorite shoes and has had a hard time finding a pair, he readily agreed to shop at the other end of the city. After getting over the shock, we headed over to an outlet mall and these were my haul that day!

Green pea coat with fur hood -  Urban Planet - $20 SALE
Great for spring and 50% off!! I don't own a lot of green but this green really grabbed me. So beautiful and bright!

Yellow "unhoodie" - BlueNotes - $10 SALE
The clerk called this a hoodie but it clearly doesn't have a hood. So I'm going to call it an "unhoodie". So nice and warm and happy. Perfect for layering or by its cute self.

Dark Blue faux leather bomber - Urban Planet - $15 SALE
Since my leather jacket was stolen last Dec. I've been on the hunt for another one. This one is cute, though not as good as the old one. I love the dark blue color. So unexpected.

Silver cocktail dress with black ribbon band and rosettes - Winners - $30
Ok...this is a cheat. I actually bought this early Dec. 2011 to wear to the BF's Christmas party. It was hanging on my rolling rack so I had to add it to my blog now. Why? 'Cause I can!

A shot of the beautiful colors! The hat, scarf and faux fur (for all you PETA fanatics) vest were already hanging on the rolling rack.

 
The items below I bought at another mall on the same day. It may have been super warm lately but I know Old Man Winter is lurking around. I'm getting ready for a very cold winter to come.


Silver Grey snow pants w/ suspenders - Sears - $25 SALE
Been on the hunt for snow pants for a while and just my luck, I followed my instincts and found these at the children's dept. for 50% off! There's advantages to being tiny :-D

Black hooded parka - Sirens - $25 SALE
Who knew Sirens carried winter gear!? This was so warm and cozy and LONG! Perfect for those cold winter days and nights. Very fashionable looking as well.


It was a looooong day of shopping and going to different stores and malls. In the end I was very lucky in that I found lots of deals and best of all, they had my size! I was totally meant to get these!! And that's not just justifying it ;)

Overall, lots of good deals still to be had. Spring collections are arriving now and the stores are very eager to sell all their fall and winter stock. If you're frugal and smart like me, right now is a great time to shop, shop, and shop some more! 

Happy Shopping!

PS. Yes the BF did find his shoes at the first mall. Had to drive far but he's now got his shoes! ^_^

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Adventures Galore! Need ideas - HELP!


An idea popped up long ago to go spend my days off more productively by indulging in one of my passions - getting lost in the city. But this time I am going to keep track and blog about it. One of the things I love to do is visiting new places and going to events around my culturally diverse city. Calgary has a lot to offer and lucky for me, a lot of them are free or at a low-cost. A big bonus is that Calgary has been named "Cultural Capital of Canada for 2012" so this year will prove to be extra deliciously awesome for arts and culture in cowtown.




The Plan

I plan to spend my day off going to one community for the full day. Whether it's at my favorite community Kensington or others like Marda Loop or Inglewood, I am going to let my imagination guide me and see where the day goes.


Criterias?

1. Most important of all - must be SAFE.

2. Be easily accessible by transit - C-Train and/or buses

3. An event happening on that day - Not a must but would definitely be a bonus!

4. It can also be an event or activity. It doesn't necessarily have to be "community related".





Any ideas?

If you have any ideas of places/activities/events around Calgary, please do share! Even if you don't think I would be interested, let's hear it anyway!

As well...what should I title this blog feature???

I am super excited to be committed to this adventure and to start blogging!! So many ideas and so many things to do!! 2012 will be a big year culturally not only for Calgary, but for little me too!!


Source: Calgary Herald article "Calgary a Cultural Capital of Canada for 2012"

Sunday, January 1, 2012

First morning of 2012

Good morning world! It's January 1, 2012. Aside from nursing a throbbing headache and gurgling stomach (no more wine for this girlie for a while) everything is looking peachy. I'm sitting on my bed with my head propped up against the pillows, blankets to keep me warm and the bf playing with the cat by my legs. And as I type away on my laptop, occasionally glancing at the playful scene infront of me, I realize that it's the simple things in life that counts. It's just another day. A very good day.
 
I used to believe the old superstition - Spend New Years Eve with the ones you want to spend the rest of the year with. If not then it'll be a bad year for your relationship with that person. Well...that little myth was proven wrong last year. It's not NYE that counts. If life were that easy I would make sure to be with every single person when the clock strikes 12. What counts is the work you do everyday to keep your relationships intact and healthy. Whether it be with your significant other, parents, friends, collegues, etc.  
 
Live life to the fullest and have a strong sense of self.
 
I am ready for you 2012. Question is: Are you ready for ME? 

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